Tuesday, November 25, 2008

a new look; new pictures

Finally I am updating my blog; but I have to tell you all that I really tried to be with the 'in' blogger crowd and give my blog a new look and it seems that I have done away with my prior posts! I am so lame at this! So if there is anyone out there that can tell me what I did wrong please feel free to chime in!
Update on my little man:
So Jeff has been home for 14 1/2 months now and he is growing like a weed! 10 inches of growth! He is now on the charts as far as his height/weight; when he was first home he was not quite there.
The last month he has made huge strides with his behavior. For those of you reading who have not met my little monster, Jeff is a very independent, high energy, very loving, adorable, intelligent 3 yr old who loves loves loves to be outside exploring. He would be outside 24/7 if I allowed him. There is nothing he loves more than to dig for worms and rearrange rocks.
Jeff started a new school about 4 wks ago and I decided to start a reward system for his behavior towards his new friends. He can get pretty rough and he really needs encouragement on being a gentle friend.
So if his teacher tells me or his dad that he had a good day with his friends (no hitting,pushing etc) then he gets a horse sticker when he gets home. Once he earns two stickers he gets to go to his cousin's house and she gives him a lesson on her horse. This is working like a charm! I am so excited about it! He LOVES horses and especially his new found friend, Emma the horse. She loves kids and behaves so well for Jeff. She does whatever it is he wants her to do.
I am going to try to put pics of Jeff with beautiful Emma up now; we will see if I can actually do it!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Do I have any readers left????????????

Hi all! Well my boy is home! For almost a month. I have been so bad about posting on my blog that I am not sure anyone is even reading this! If there is someone out there reading this here is my update: Jeff is doing really well, as I sit here and type this he is in school. He goes to school 2 days a week for right now and they know to call me immediately if he gets upset and is inconsolable(sp???). He is doing great with the dogs; at least he thinks so, you might want to ask the dogs what they think! Having a 2 yr old again has been challenging. I love it but it is challenging. I think that parenting a little one after yours are already in their teens gives you a sense of what is really important when raising a little one. When Sami (now 17) was little the most important thing was making sure she was clean, fed and all of her stuff was sterilized. So now with Jeff yeah those things are important but I think that if I had to make my list now it would go something like this:

1. fed (of course)

2. talked to

3. read to

4. played with

5. bathed




3. talked to

4. read to

5. played with

It does not seem like a big difference but if you drew out your day and knew you only had so much time to get all your household, cooking, finance stuff done and there was so much time to do stuff with your kids don't spend it stressing over if your kid has sparkling clean clothes on or clean room; spend it rolling on the floor laughing with them, making goofy faces in the mirror together, reading a book, pretending to be monsters and who can make the scariest noise.

My all time favorite is to do those silly dances with Jeff off his little singalong videos he LOVES it when I join in.

My little disclaimer: Jeff is bathed daily, fed ALL the time and his room is fairly clean Just gets the 'lived in' look quite often.

I love having him home.

My family is complete!

Friday, August 24, 2007

Our Journey to Jeff........: Letter to Jeff.....

last time we were together..........

Letter to Jeff.....

It has been almost 9 months since you were in my arms....it has felt like an eternity.

In 5 days you will be once again and I am having so many emotions go thru me like a flood.

I have had people ask me ' you must be soo excited and can hardly sleep!' well, I am so excited, I am also very scared. Scared? I am scared that we will do everything right by you. I want to help you thrive in this big world so you can discover what it is that you want more than ANYTHING in this world. I want you to be happy. I want you to live everyday of your life to it's fulliest and not ever have regrets for the choices you make whether they be good or bad choices. I want you to learn from all your sucesses and failures. I never want to hold you back from your dreams; no matter how scared I am that you may get hurt, fail or be heart broken. I want you to lean on your family because we love you so very much. I want you to always know that you are wanted in such a huge way by so many; your presence in our home is going to be such a tremendous blessing!

Lastly, I want you to know that I am your Mommy and I will be here for you forever no matter what the occasion I will be your constant; your rock. You my dear little boy will be my joy, my laughter, my tears, my pride....My Gift from God.

I Love You. See you in 5 days..........

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

It has been awhile............

I am so behind, why you might ask?

Well here is the story; I thought my son would be home in our arms Mother's day weekend. It turns out that there has been some 'delays' nothing that I can even explain because it makes no sense to me. Jeff has been Jeff Nicot Juerrer Krebs since the beginning of April; legally our son and we can not go get him....ridiculous.

Good news is that we ARE getting closer. His file should be released for passport anytime now. Marie seems to think we are looking at possibly the end of July so that means we can travel end of August to bring him home. I am amazed at what a roller coaster ride this has been. I think right now I am just numb. I miss him so much!

I think that Marie & the nannies are really ready for him to come as well. He is apparently a little trouble maker. Just what I hoped for (ok I may eat my words at some point!)
When asking Marie 'how is Jeff doing?' she says 'he is fine, doing his job' my response
'his job?' Marie: 'yes, his job, getting into trouble like little boys are supposed to do!'
That is what keeps me going, I am the one who is having a hard time each day, not him. He knows no different he is too young to understand the concept that my Mom & Dad are not here to pick me up yet, where are they? that brings me comfort.
A fellow adoptive mom is on her way to Haiti today to see if she can obtain a medical visa for her son. I am keeping her & little handsome Wil in my thoughts & prayers. I know she can do it. He needs some TLC and an air conditioned hospital.
Well I will be posting more often now. I decided to use this as my journal of sorts to get me through this next month or two. So those of you who look to see if I updated might be thinking to yourselves..........SHUT UP ALREADY! LOL.......

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Forwarded to me by my Dad...well worth sharing, I am Proud to be an American!

Will you give this to my Daddy?
As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support 'Red Fridays.'
Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference.While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer.
I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest act's of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving through the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camo's, as they began heading to their gate everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering.
When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families.Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and ho me without fear or reprisal.

Just when I thought I could not be more proud of my country or of our service men and women a young girl, not more than 6 or 7 years old, ran up to one of the male soldiers. He knelt down and said 'hi,' the little girl then she asked him if he would give something to her daddy for her.... The young soldier, he didn't look any older than maybe 22 himself, said he would try and what did she want to give to her daddy. Then suddenly the little girl grabbed the neck of this soldier, gave him the biggest hug she could muster and then kissed him on the cheek.

The mother of the little girl, who said her daughters name was Courtney, told the young soldier that her husband was a Marine and had been in Iraq for 11 months now. As the mom was explaining how much her daughter, Courtney, missed her father, the young soldier began to tear up.

When this temporarily single mom was done explaining her situation, all of the soldiers huddled together for a brief second. Then one of the other servicemen pulled out a military looking walkie-talkie. They started playing with the device and talking back and forth on it. After bout 10-15 seconds of this, the young soldier walked back over to Courtney, bent down and said this to her, 'I spoke to your daddy and he told me to give this to you.' He then hugged this little girl that he had just met and gave her a kiss on the cheek. He finished by saying 'your daddy told me to tell you that he loves you more than anything and he is coming home very soon.'

The mom at this point was crying almost uncontrollably and as the young soldier stood to his feet he saluted Courtney and her mom.

I was standing no more than 6 feet away from this entire event unfolded.As the soldiers began to leave, heading towards their gate, people resumed their applause. As I stood there applauding and looked around,their were very few dry eyes, including my own. That young soldier in one last act of selflessness, turned around and blew a kiss to Courtney with a tear rolling down his cheek.

We need to remember everyday all of our soldiers and their families and thank God for them and their sacrifices. At the end of the day, it's good to be an American.

RED FRIDAYS ----- Very soon, you will see a great many people wearing Red every Friday. The reason? Americans who support our troops used to be called the 'silent majority'. We are no longer silent, and are voicing our love for God, country and home in record breaking numbers. We are not organized, boisterous or over-bearing. We get no liberal media coverage on TV, to reflect our message or our opinions.Many Americans, like you, me and all our friends, simply want to recognize that the vast majority of America supports our troops. Our idea of showing solidarity and support for our troops with dignity and respect starts this Friday -and continues each and every Friday until the troops all come home, sending a deafening message that.. Every red-blooded American who supports our men and women afar will wear something red. By word of mouth, press, TV -- let's make the United States on every Friday a sea of red much like a homecoming football game in the bleachers. If every one of us who loves this country will share this with acquaintances, co-workers, friends, and family. It will not be long before the USA is covered in RED and it will let our troops know the once 'silent' majority is on their side more than ever,certainly more than the media lets on. The first thing a soldier says when asked 'What can we do to make things better for you?' is...We need your support and your prayers. Let's get the word out and lead with class and dignity, by example; and wear something red every Friday.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

updating......I know,,,, It's about time..........

Well there has been alot that has happened since my last entry.
Found out that Simon & Jeff have different fathers. Simon's father now has Simon, so us adopting him is not going to happen. I am taking this as one of those things that just was not meant to be. I will always have a very special place in my heart for that little guy, when I go to pick up Jeff I will be putting together a backpack for Simon with photos of our family & jeff, of course and write him a letter that I can have translated, maybe someone will read it to him someday.
Then we just found out late last week that there is some sort of hold up in MOI (Ministry of Interior) they have files that have been sitting in that office since beginning of Jan.....OK folks......let's get these kids home!
My boy is turning into a little monster, dumping bags of beans & rice and running from Marie slamming doors, as Marie puts it, 'he is doing his job' being a little boy!
He was throwing a fit when I called last time and Marie put him on the phone as soon as I started talking to him he stopped his screaming and listened to his mom. What a great feeling that was. I really think he remembers my voice.
So not sure when I am going to pick him up, hopefully next month!
I am praying for that every day!
That is it for now............

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

WOW Am I behind or what!?!?!!!

I have so much to share I do not know where to start! We are OUT of IBESR! As of Feb 8th
we are hoping to travel to Haiti 1st or 2nd week of May to pick up Jeff.
My other BIG news is............we will be returning to Haiti approx Oct/Nov to pick up our other son........Simon! Jeff's big brother! I can not believe it! So we are going to have to do a lot of calling to the creche after bringing Jeff home so Simon does not feel totally forgotten. I think I will make him some home videos that will make him understand a little more that we WILL be back to get him.
I got Jeff's crib set up and sadly did not put up the regular rail on the front, we decided to just put on the guard rails. Why? Honestly, Todd said he was going to be about 20 months old and if he wants out of his crib he would much rather him just climb out of bed and come see us rather than try to scale the side of his crib. So no rail. I guess we will see how it goes when he gets home.
My best friend is throwing me a baby shower! I am really excited for this day, she is so thoughtful. I get to see friends I rarely see and talk about my favorite topic all day....ADOPTION! I am going to see my little friend Gyrlande, I am hoping she will help me and the girls (Kimi,Sami & Sierra) open presents.....
Anyway, that is the big news for now........
I will add more later...got to get ready for work!

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Just got back from Haiti!!!!!

Jeff The cutest boy! Hanging out with Mommy.
Top middle picture is Marie giving Jeff a big kissy! below that photo is Gyrlande showing her buddy how to hold is bottle by himself, she is very cute! She & her mommy, Stephanie are still in Haiti will be returning after Christmas together. I had a wonderful time with everyone especially with my little man, he is so funny, loves to laugh and be goofy.
He has such a great smile and laugh.
Still waiting to be signed out of IBESR........but my gut feeling is he will be Todd's Birthday present and we will travel to get him around his birthday end of March.........LETS HOPE!!!!!
That is it for now......

Thursday, October 19, 2006

backtracking....and Going to Haiti!

Every month I recieve a report called the 'granny Bin report' it is done by a wonderful lady in Haiti.
This picture was taken in August of Marie & Jeff.
I love this picture!

As soon as I can figure out how to get my recent ones in this format I will be posting those as well.

So I am going to Haiti! Yep! Finally! Nov 27th and returning on the 1st of Dec.
I am flying out with Steph who is adopting Gyrlande and we are also meeting Jen C from Calgary in Florida, this will be her 1st trip to Haiti.
We are all very excited!
My friend Michele just got back from Haiti after picking up her beautiful daugther Valencia. She is adjusting well. It is so awesome to hear how well she is doing! Well that is it for now.
See ya!

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

I am not here in the U.S. today...........

My mind, my heart, my soul, my everything is not here in the states today, I am in Haiti.
You may think Wow she is really crackin' up! No, I miss my son and my mind is wandering to a place far away where he is getting on with his life watching the other children play& being cared for by his nannies. I need to go visit him. I am afraid that if I wait too long he will not remember my face or my voice. I know that it will all be ok, but when he is older I want him to know that his parents did all they could to visit him every chance that we could. I guess I am going thru "Jeff withdrawals"!
My friend Renee is going the beginning of next month to meet her adorable son Noah I can not wait to hear how her visit went she has had to wait far too long to be able to meet her son.
She is a trooper, although she will probably say she is not that tough, she really is. I am so happy I met her she is an inspiration to me and I am very blessed to have her as a friend.
Love you Renee!
That is it for now, back to work.......big sigh!

To my Jeffrey Nicot.....Mommy Loves you. XOXOXOXO

Sunday, October 01, 2006


Hi all! Well, The director of social services has been replaced, not sure if the new replacment is there temporarily or permanantly.
I am praying that one of the rumors I heard is true: in the history of directors being replaced when the director comes in they learn the in's & out's of the position and starts signing files to get the 'backlog' caught up. So we will just have to wait and see what happens. I am so hoping it is true! That would mean that there is still a tiny, tiny glimmer of hope that our son can be home sooner than April or May.
There has been quite a bit of visitors to the creche lately. Four kids have gone home over the last month and two more are going home within the next month.....and FINALLY! Little Valencia Jade is going home. It has been too long! Her mamma is very excited! I am living out what it will be like in the end process thru her right now, it is so exciting, I could hardly concentrate the day I found out she booked her flight. I keep daydreaming about that final visit to Haiti and how seeing Jeff and knowing that I do not have to get on a plane without him will be such a wonderful feeling!!!!!!!
I will update more as I find out how it all unfolds.
Take care!!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

PAC Parents: PAC Movies

PAC Parents: PAC Movies

Hi Guys. If you click on the link above you can see our little Jeff taking some 'assisted' steps.
My 1st reaction to this was a major crying breakdown, because I am missing all these moments in person that is. However, I am so happy to see that Jeff is right on target developmentally. He just looks like he is as happy as can be. The last report I got was 'he is spoiled!' He cries when he is not being held, that is ok with us, we know he is getting the love and attention that he needs & deserves. So on the 21st we will be in IBESR for 1 month.........but who is counting??????

Here is a picture of our little guy standing up! SO CUTE!
Jeff & Jean (Kodak's Baby Boy).....they are 15 days apart.....He just can not keep those fingers out of his mouth!!!!!

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

where is Auntie Ami???????

I just got a call from Jeff, he is wondering why his Auntie Ami never calls his Mommy back......I told him not to worry it has been like this for years she still loves me, she just can't seem to bring herself to pick up the phone.....when he gets home he is going to have a little chat with his Auntie Ami............

Just kiddin' AMI! Sami told me you were going to be checking the blog........Love you......

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

WE ARE IN!!!!!!!

Hello!! Well yesterday brought some wonderful news....our file has been submitted to IBESR! What does that mean???
Well, 1st of all we have a file number 13,896....
now all we have to do is ........guess..........You got it! Wait! Yipee! (big smile)
We are now waiting for the 'social services' department in Haiti to sign our file. It 1st must be reviewed by four different people and signed by the head man himself...Mr. Cadet.
Once that is done then we go to 2nd legal (I think) or Ministry of interior.
Anyway, we have been submitted and I could not be happier to being one step closer to bringing our boy home!!!!!!!

Monday, August 14, 2006

What is does that word patience mean again?!?!?!?!

Jeff at 5 months old.................
Well here I am it is 10:25 pm and the thought of sleep is not reality. I have so many thoughts running thru my head, I can not believe that in a little over a month my son who is hundreds & hundreds of miles away from me will be 1 yr old........it makes me sad. Sad because I want to see his 1st steps, hear his 1st word, get his hair cut for the 1st time. It is most likely that I will not be the one experiences all those 1st's....as far as I know as of today our file has not been submitted. I believe Marie had a tough time gathering all his 'dossier' paperwork. I am hopeful that this week will bring good news.
I look back at some of my posts and think.....goodness have I become a total bummer person or what!?!? I am usually positive and hopeful but this is TOUGH!
So what do I do? Break out the paint brushes, clean out cupboards, organize my house, my desk at work, my kitchen........so many things to do but none of them involve hopping on a plane and getting my son. So my ambition is slowly disappearing. I need to make a priority list and stick to it, keep myself busy....Yep that is what I am going to do!
OK on a POSITIVE note, our kids are so darn cute, they talk about when Jeff comes home and it really warms my heart. It makes me happy to know that they are so excited for his arrival. He is going to be one spoiled little dude. We were talking the other day about when he gets into school and how he is going to have the biggest cheering section for his kindergarten plays and all school events, he may get a bit embarassed ....YEP those loud obnoxious people in the front row with the cameras & camcorders that would be MY family.......sigh!!
Anyway that is it for tonight I certainly hope to post some wonderful news this week saying "WE ARE IN!"
Until then.........I say goodbye!

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Getting out of the Heat!!!!!

Sierra in Bodega Bay

Sami at Dillon's beach........

Five of us....what's missing? Our Kimi & Jeff!

Kevin in Bodega Bay

What you went to the beach without me???!??????!!?

So it was too hot for several weeks and just could not take it anymore! We drove to Dillon's beach on a Friday night off to Santa Rosa to get a hotel room and spent the next day in Bodega Bay and back to Dillon's beach. It was soooo nice to get out of that heat! But when we came home.......back to reality. Hot. Hot. Hot!


This picture was taken by another mom adopting from PAC. She went in July.....Jeff is holding a photo album for babies, I put pictures of Todd, the kids & I in it. She said that he was looking at the pictures of Todd & I. I wonder if he can actually see the pictures at this age or if it is just colors!?!?!?! Hmmmm..........

Our file.......well Jeff got his psychological evaluation on Saturday,his pictures were going to be taken yesterday for his file. Should be in IBESR by Monday at the latest.....keeping my fingers crossed!

Our trip......things are unstable still in Haiti. It makes me sad because I want to see my son so very badly. I lay awake at night thinking of him....is he sleeping ok tonight? Does he feel ok? Does he remember us? When I go to see him next time will he remember? Will he smile a huge smile and reach out for me?
I did not realize when this all began how much you can love a child so many miles away in such a short time of meeting him. I truly believe that he was meant to be with us, otherwise I would not feel so strongly about him. I have no hesitation, no mixed feelings. THIS IS MY SON.....that is that.
Adoption is a true blessing, I am so thankful that I am able to experience this and able to have my children experience this. I am very thankful that I have a loving husband that has the same desires I do about family.
That is it for now!
Happy Tuesday!

Friday, July 21, 2006

What to do!?!??!?!

OK today I am a little down in the dumps, news coming from Haiti is saying that there is an increase in kidnappings and things are getting unstable (well more unstable) and it has brought Todd & I to a decision that I am sad to make, so what will I do........procrastinate on making that decision!!! We are thinking that it really would not be wise for both of us to go to Haiti in Sept. so as of right now it looks like Todd may go on his own. Do Not Mark my words on that! I am not sure if I can stay away from Jeff for too much longer. It has been almost 2 months since seeing him and the wait well........is getting unbearable. I know my son is fine and is well cared for but I really want to hold him in my arms. We are just going to keep up on the news from Haiti and see what happens over the next several weeks. It is sad not just for me & my family, it is sad for the country. My heart goes out to Haiti.
That is it for now.
Say a prayer for Haiti............

Monday, July 17, 2006

Waiting....to wait.......!??!!?

Good Morning. A fellow mom-to-be has been in Haiti for the last week, I received an email from her saying she took a cute video of my little guy getting a bath. I can not wait to see it!
I am waiting to hear from Marie about my file being put in to IBESR (Haitian social service dept). When that happens I will really need to learn patience, that is the longest part of the wait. I am still hopeful that we can bring our son home in April at the latest!
We still have plans to go visit in Sept. I really am very excited about seeing Jeff again. I am hoping that another friend of mine that is adopting from another Orphanage will be traveling at the same time, I would love to be able to fly out with Renee to Haiti, we can yack at each other instead of driving our husbands crazy! Our families are meeting for the 1st time this Thursday, I am looking forward to that. I feel it is very important to stay connected with other parents who are on the same rollercoaster ride of emotions during this process. It is a support system that is much needed.
Anyway that is it for now. I will be updating my blog on a more regular basis now that I figured it all out!
Hope all is well.